Cora Abigail: Forgetting

Description and Synopsis

On September 4, 2011, I gave birth to our second child, Cora Abigail. She was stillborn, having died in the womb at 31 weeks gestation due to an umbilical cord accident. This blog chronicles my reaction to what is the most profound loss I have thus far experienced in my life, the questions to which I am gradually finding answers (and many that still remain unanswered), and my reflections on what I'm learning through this grief process.

I am keeping a paper journal to record my un-edited and un-censored writings, and the posts on this blog will not be exact replicas of those writings. I will back-date my posts to reflect the actual dates on which the paper versions were written.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Forgetting

I'm feeling more hopeful these days, but sometimes I worry that I'm forgetting the essence of Cora, forgetting the deep sadness of her, forgetting what her loss means. I only have to look back at her photos to remember that she was a baby, a real baby, a baby who would have grown into a toddler, a child, a teenager, an adult. That's a big deal. Cora was a big deal.